I am inching closer and closer to my dreams of self-employment. While this is certainly great news there’s just one little problem: I’m turning into a total Scrooge with my money.
Becoming a Workaholic
There are certain things you have to give up in order to pursue your dreams. For me I’m giving up sleep and my social life. Don’t get me wrong, I am perfectly okay with this. I know my temporary sacrifices will pay me back immensely in the long run.
There’s just one teensy problem. I have been working so hard for my money that I can’t stand to part with it.
For some reason I have no problem at all parting with my money from my day job. Maybe that’s because a) I pretty much just sit on my ass for 8 hours a day and b) I am working for someone else. I’m simply not emotionally invested in my job.
Becoming a Semi-Hermit
I have been working my ass off for myself. If I don’t have my kids you can pretty much expect not to hear from me. I lock myself in my house and work, work, work. Since I spend thirty two hours a week working a regular job I have to devote all of my extra time to working on my side business.
This means late nights, early mornings, and long weekends. Thanks to my girls I’m not a total hermit. I actually don’t do any side work when they are with me and awake. We visit family often and really spend quality time together.
However, when they lay down for bed I get into work mode. In addition, on the evenings and weekends that they are with their dad I am glued to the computer.
Becoming a Scrooge
And, since I spend so much time and effort trying to make my side business work I just can’t bear to part with any of the money I earn.
I am a person who loves sleep. I could literally sleep for twelve hours straight every day. But here lately I have had quite a few work until 2:30 a.m. nights to get up at 7 a.m. and get ready for work. I’ve also had a few days where I’ve drug my butt out of bed at 5 a.m. to get some work done before work at the day job begins.
In short I am very emotionally invested in my side business. I am working hard and the hard work is starting to payoff. And, because I’m working for myself I just cannot bring myself to part with the money I’m earning.
For instance, one of my goals this month is to take the girls somewhere educational and fun. I am dying to go to the zoo. I love the zoo and haven’t been there the entire summer. However, the zoo is freakin’ expensive. I could take a $100 of the money I earned this week and use it to go. But, I just can’t bring myself to do that. Instead I’ve been concocting ideas on how I can make budget cuts in my already bare bones budget to find the money. Trust me, I will find a way to go to the zoo without touching anything I earn from my side business.
What Does This Mean for the Future?
In a way my scrooge-like behavior will benefit me when I go out on my own. I will be more frugal than ever. But, I will have to get used to parting with the money I work so hard for. After all, I do have bills to pay!
If you have some side hustles going on do you like parting with the money? What do you think would be the biggest barrier of working for yourself?